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1) 1955- The Salk Polio Vaccine used in the U.S. for cases of polio sky rocket! It was reported that doctors on the staff of the National Institutes for Health are avoiding vaccination of their children with the Salk vaccine, and that after experimenting with 1200 monkeys , they declared the Salk vaccine worthless as a prevantative and a danger to take.

2) Early 1956- 17 states in the U.S. reject the government supplied Salk polio vaccine. BUT THEN, late 1956- US governments appropriates $53.6 million to ‘aid states in providing FREE VACCINE to people UNDER 20 YEARS OF AGE”– then eventually, at the end of that year, The American Public Health Service announces 168 cases of polio and 6 deaths among those vaccinated. Censorship is only THEN imposed on the reporting of the reactions to Salk vaccine.

3) 1957- the CIA plays McGill University Department of Psychiatry founder Dr. D. Ewen Cameron $69,000 to perform LSD studeis and potentially LETHAL experiments on Canadians being treated for minor disorders like post-partum depression and anxiety– this happened at the Allan Memorial Institute, which houses Psychiatry Department of the Royal Victoria Hospital in Montreal. The CIA ENCOURAGED Dr. Cameron to fully explore his “psychic driving” concept of correcting madness through completely erasing one’s memory! and re-writing the psyche! These “Driving” experiments involve: PUTTING HUMAN TEST SUBJECTS INTO DRUG, ELECTROSHOCK AND SENSORY DEPRIVATION-INDUCED VEGETATIVE STATES FOR UP TO 3 MONTHS, AND THEN PLAYING TAPE LOOPS OF NOISE OR SIMPLE REPETITIVE STATEMENTS FOR WEEKS OR MONTHS, IN ORDER TO “REWRITE” THE “ERASED” PSYCHE. Dr. Cameron also gives human test subject paralytic drugs and electroconvulsive therapy 30 to 40 times, as part of his experiments! Most of Dr. Cameron’s test subjects suffer PERMANENT damage as a result of his work… when they only started off with minor problems.

There has to be a limit to the following!

4) In order to study how blood flows through children’s brains, researchers at Children’s Hospital in Philadelphia perform the following experiment on healthy children, ranging in age from 3-11: THEY INSERT NEEDLES INTO EACH CHILD’S FEMORAL ARTERY (THIGH) AND JUGULAR VEIN (NECK), BRINGING THE BLOOD DOWN FROM THE BRAIN. THEN, THEY FORCE EACH CHILD TO INHALE A SPECIAL GAS THROUGH A FACE MASK. In their subsequent journal: Journal of Clinical Investigation, the article existent in this study, the researcher’s note that, in order to perform the experiment, they had to restrain some of the child subjects by bandaging them to boards.

Sound pessimistically inhumane yet?

5) 1962: Researchers at Laurel Children’s Center in Maryland test experimental acne antiobiotics on children, continuing their tests after half of the young test subjects develop SEVERE liver damage because the experimental medication. 6) 1963: The FDA begins requiring that a new pharmaceutical undergo 3 human clinical trials before it will approve it. From 1962 to 1980, pharmaceutical companies satisfied that requirement by running phase I trials, which determine a drug’s toxicity, on prison inmates, giving them small amounts of cash for compensation- look at the results though:

1963- Chester M. Southam, who injected Ohio State Prison inmates with live cancer cells in 1952, performs the same procedure on 22 senile, African-American female patients at the Brooklyn Jewish Chronic Disease Hospital in order to watch their immunological response. Southam tells the patients that they are receiving “some cells”, but leaves out the fact they are CANCER CELLS!! he claims he doesn’t obtain informed consent from the patients because he does not want to frighten them by telling them what he is doing, but he nevertheless TEMPORARILY loses his medical license because of it. Ironically, he EVENTUALLY BECOMES PRESIDENT OF THE AMERICAN CANCER SOCIETY…!

1963-1966: for 3 years New York University researcher Saul Krugman promises parents with mentally disabled children definite enrollment into the Willowbrook State School in Staten Island, N.Y., a resident mental institution for mentally retarded children, in exchange for their signatures on a consent form for procedures presented as “vaccinations”. In reality, the procedures involve deliberately infecting children with viral hepatitis by feeding them an extract made from the feces of infected patients!! just so that Krugman can study the course of viral hepatitis as well as the effectiveness of a hepatitis vaccine. 1978- The CDC begins experimental hepatitis B vaccine trials in NY. Its ads for research subjects specifically ask for promiscuous homosexual men. Professor Wolf Szmuness of the Columbia University School of Public Health had made the vaccine’s infective serum from the pooled blood serum of hepatitis-infected homosexuals and then developed it in chimpanzees! The only animal susceptible to hepatitis B. Leading to the theory that HIV originated in Chimpanzees before being transferred over to humans via this vaccine! Only a few MONTHS after, 1,083 homosexual men receive the vaccine, NY physicians begin noticing cases of Kaposis Sarcoma, “Mycoplasma Penetrans” and a new strain of herpes virus among New York’s homosexual community — diseases not usually seem among young, American men, but that would later be known as common opportunistic diseases associated with AIDS (Golizesk).

2 years later, 1980- According to blood samples tested years later for HIV, 20% of all NY homosexual men who PARTICIPATED in the 1978 hepatitis B vaccine experiment are HIV-positive by this point (Golizesk)—-> The first AIDS case appears in San Francisco. The CDC ACKNOWLEDGES that a disease known as AIDS exists and confirms 26 cases of the disease- all in previously healthy homosexuals living in NY, San Francisco and L.A.– again supporting the speculation that aids originated from the hepatitis B experiments from 1978-1980. 1984: CDC ACKNOWLEDGES THAT 60% OF THOSE RECEIVING HEPATITIS VACCINE ARE HIV +CCC

(1988-2001): The New York City Administration for Children’s Services begins allowing foster care children living about 2 DOZEN CHILDREN’S HOMES TO BE USED IN NATIONAL INSTITUTES OF HEALTH-SPONSORED (NIH) EXPERIMENTAL AIDS DRUG TRIALS. These children– totalling 465 by the program’s end– experience serious side effects, including inability to walk, diarrhea, vomiting, swollen joints and cramps. Children’s home employees are UNAWARE that they are giving the HIV-infected children experimental drugs! Rather than standard AIDS treatments (New York City ACS, Doran)

1990: The U.S. sends 1.7 million members of the armed forces, 22% of whom are african-american, to the Persian Gulf for the Gulf War “Desert Storm”. MORE THAN 400,000 OF THESE SOLDIERS ARE ORDERED TO TAKE AN EXPERIMENTAL NERVE AGENT MEDICATION CALLED PYRIDOSTIGMINE, WHICH IS LATER BELIEVED TO BE THE CAUSE OF THE GULF WAR SYNDROME- symptoms ranging from skin disorders, neurological disorders, incontinence, uncontrollable drooling and vision problems- affecting Gulf War veterans (Golizesk)

1992: Columbia University’s New York State Psychiatric Institute and the Mount Sinai School of Medicine give 100 males- mostly African-American and Hispanic, all between the ages of 6 and 10 and all the younger brothers of juvenile delinquents– 10 milligrams of fefluramine (fen-fen) per kilogram of body weight! in order to test the theory that low serotonin levels are linked to violent or aggressive behavior…..!!!!! Parents of the participants received $125 each, including a $25 Toys’R’ Us gift certificate. 1993: Clinton administration announces plans for a National Childhood Vaccination Program. 103rd Congress introduces $732,s733,HR1460, legislation that would attempt to vaccine allll children in the U.S., WHILE SEVERELY LIMITING EXEMPTIONS PARENTS COULD CLAIM: THE BILLS ALSO SEEK TO SET UP A NATIONAL VACCINE REGISTRY TO TRACK DOWN PARENTS WHO RESIST!!!! This is going on EVEN THOUGH THE SEATTLE TIME AT THE SAME TIME REPORTS THAT ALL POLIO IN THE US IS CAUSED BY VACCINES!!!! (6/10/93). 1995 (what a year!!)

March 15th President’s Advisory Committee on Human Radiation Experiments (ACHRE), former human subjects, including those who were used in experiments as children, give SWORN TESTIMONIES STATING THAT THEY WERE SUBJECTED TO RADIATION EXPERIMENTS AND/OR BRAINWASHED, HYPNOTIZED, DRUGGED, PSYCHOLOGICALLY TORTURED, THREATENED AND RAPED DURING CIA EXPERIMENTS. If you need to check: Christina DiNicola from (1966-1976) in Tucson, Arizona, Claudia Mullen’s experience with Dr. Sidney Gottlieb (of MKULTRA fame) and Suzanne Starr in Colorado. President Clinton publicly apologizes to the thousands of people who were victims of MKULTRA and other mind-control experimental programs.

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The grandson then asked: “Which wolf will win?” The old man replied simply: “The one you feed.”

Strong words free your mind. It’s nice to wonder if you are inhumane to marvel on your evil intentions and whether they deserve to be executed, and then read something like this and know that you’re not the only one. That your feeling is theorized and categorized and has a philosophical label probably. It’s nice to ensure yourself that you are not born innately good. That being selfish and evil is just a survival instinct. That somehow your mind is naturally implanted with the vague idea that you have an ‘Off’ switch and someone else is controlling it and that you don’t have to go through the trouble of truly realizing that. Because life is short. Because noticing how fragile the world around you is gives you reason to belong to it all the more. But when did that happen? But….

They say that people retrieve back to the womb they were created in the older and weaker they get. Sounds heard through clay walls, an overstretched bucket of water on top of our heads to hinder communication with anything outside the human form of what we will soon be.

And that the life cycle is a permeable cell, its membrane easily broken and its contents rapidly diffused into nothing whole, nothing real nor living. Sooner or later, we’ll retrace the same steps but tread them differently; subconsciously… we will become kids again and amuse ourselves with colors, shapes, sounds, effects, texture, noise. We will rediscover what we have discovered and then discern them all over again; we won’t have as much time as we had in our lifetime to redo all that. Just a sprinkle of its containments is enough to understand the whole.

When your life is a cake destined to be gobbled up in small pieces… don’t forget to eat the last.

Briefly! in a very small amount of time the flavor will soon be washed down by the natural excretion of your saliva. Fucking savor the moment… and you’ll be so close to understanding the suddenness of life.

Those who ask us to face our fears obviously had their eyes shut in their own devastating experience. Because fear has no face, it hardly exists beyond ourselves and it is only through other humans that we unearth it and sense that it is there to avoid… and that once we are old and wrinkled, this materialistic fear of loss ceases to exist. I once pulled a beautiful and fairly large weed plant from its roots… have you ever done that? It feels gratifying to snatch the life away from something useless… I wish I could do that now without feeling juvenile. But fear is more innate than anyone could ever imagine… we are born with it aren’t we? When I was born, that screeching announcement of my arrival was a deplorable fear of a new setting. We are taught to fear our parents first in order to comprehend the concept of respecting them. But slowly…. We retreat back to that womb and nod our heads with wisdom as if all the pain we ever went through is now finally justified in the pathetic aged cloudiness of our minds.

My friend once told me that all her life she always felt like she was balancing her weight on a thin fishing string, and that her spandex tights are crawling up her huge ass and everyone is pointing at it. She would clutch her cheeks and noisily talk about the space tension she always imagines herself in, how distant yet challenging her audience would be and how her thighs hurt.

When did we start feeling all of these ‘musts’ to wake up and tune in?

When did her wonderful childhood circus turn her into a fraud?

… Something is happening to our world and I feel stupid even SAYING it.

Things changed. Some people are hip with it, some are not. It’s all about being utterly fucked if you know what I am talking about. Whatever.

There is balance everywhere but no scale to weigh it on.

History is made in a night. If you think you can change the evil world, a black and white child can do that perfectly. Not a grey one. As much as we want to become ONE, we can’t deny that We are just the summed up parts of the whole.

We need to deconstruct ourselves to see that we are made of something more unified. The realm of establishing a better world to live with God is in every religion known to me. Jesus is coming back to save. Muslims will be redeemed and judged. Hindus will be accumulated back to the earth, etc. But God’s lineage is not so specific, only His mission is. And yet we have to try to fight for it even when we all know that there is a bigger goal, better ignored.

“When the Jews killed Jesus to recreate Israel, they were ‘destined’ to repent during Hitler’s time.” Someone told me once that this is why Hitler killed 6 million Jews… because they had to repent for what they did to Jesus!

Is THIS why we are dying? Why our world is decaying? It is childish. THIS generation of Adam and Eve are juvenile and stupid as if Doctor Seuss wrote their story. They have separated mind from body from soul from logic from reason from pain from love from hate from patience from it all. Even our heaven and earth is confined, choked and burdened. God’s lineage has changed from “the righteous” to “the powerful”. This is so out of line. So wrong. In the realm of your pathetic existence, you must be responsible to be aware or whichever way that makes you responsible. Nothing is what it seems to be. Nothing is what it seems to be. Nothing is what it seems to be …. Nothing is what it seems to be. So think because it IS easier than not thinking. There are no nations chosen to be God’s nations. You must lead these nations back to the reunion of our scattered selves under this generations tongue.

Everything implanted has to be burned away and re-rooted. By words.

I never thought that one day I would think of anything in the morning other than what outfit I should wear that would look best under the lighting outside. Lately, I feel naked. I have been waking up with the impulse to lead myself through sharing a shocking realization. This is a serious issue, because it incites you to realize that you have to change the way you are living and live correctly or there will be consequences. Do you see? We are buried under an overlap of who we were, who we had become and who we have changed to- that it is difficult to look down and figure out why we are what we are.

I want to know why my memories of childhood seem like someone else’s, I am sure those who are reading this must also feel an impulse to reunite with SOMETHING greater and deeper. The world started smelling of old blood and rusty metal. It stinks.

“Believers, Jews, Sabaeans or Christians – whoever believes in God and the Last Day and does what is right – shall have nothing to fear or regret”- Quote from the Quran

2:177 Righteousness is not turning your faces towards the east or the west. Righteous are those who believe in GOD, the Last Day, the angels, the scripture, and the prophets; and they give the money, cheerfully, to the relatives, the orphans, the needy, the traveling alien, the beggars, and to free the slaves; and they observe the Contact Prayers (Salat) and give the obligatory charity (Zakat); and they keep their word whenever they make a promise; and they steadfastly persevere in the face of persecution, hardship, and war. These are the truthful; these are the righteous.

WELL? Are they among us? Are we among ourselves? Does it really just take a cup of coffee every morning to get our brains operating and get our souls fed with socks? Am I patient? Am I steadfast? Am I fair? Am I certain about my belief? Am I a hypocrite? Do I care at all? Do I care fully? Have I submitted myself to God? Who do I follow? Religion or politics? Who do I worship? God or myself? Who is in full control? My mind or an omnipotent one? Again, who the hell is in full control?

Who do I fear? God or the balms?

How easy is it? To make a difference!

Do I persevere? Or do I say it to live through the day easily?

What am I persevering for?

Do I show appreciation? Do I actually appreciate? Am I being honest?

Does last Prophet mean last Messenger? Will there be no one to refresh our hearing aid?

What is a partner? Where is my team?

What is Idolatry? Do I practice it subconsciously?

WHAT DO I BELIEVE? WHAT DO I BELIEVE? WHAT DO I BELIEVE? Can you put it in one sentence?

If Islam means SUBMISSION and Muslim means SUBMITTER….. then?! Isn’t that THAT? Why are we planting a bed of roses to submit ourselves on?

60:2 O you who believe, why do you say what you do not do?

My human garden has a soil of nasty feces of the universal law of ruthless selfishness. How much ever they will deplore my land it will not stop from being there and You will not stop from being true.

God, this prayer is mainly intended to be interesting, but if you would extract a moral from it, read it as a warning. Be warned that I believe that I can’t wish to build a new society in which I can generously cooperate. I believe that it would be safer to expect little help from nature. Help me teach generosity and altruism through my imperfection, because we are born selfish. Let me understand what human selfish genes have planned, because I may then at least have the chance to distort their design. Give me passion. Give me passion. Give me passion. Give me that Something that no other species have ever aspired to. Give me….

Because it’s time to understand.